Not emotion and not deficiency. The Darkness longs because the Light beholds itself in it, which makes the hunger an effect of being seen rather than a sign of lacking.
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"The Darkness has a great longing after the Light, caused by the Light's beholding itself in the Darkness, and shining in it."
The causation runs the other way from the way it is felt. The Longing is not the Darkness's own production. It is the effect of being seen.
[See BÖHME · THE MATRIX · SOPHIA]
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WHAT LONGING IS
Longing is not emotion and not deficiency. Longing is what existence is made of. The Father longs for the Son. This is not relational preference. This IS the first movement in reality. The first movement: longing-towards-Light. From whence the eternal Nature becomes always longing. Nature IS the Father's longing distributed, multiplied, appearing in every form.
The Darkness has a great longing after the Light, caused by the Light's beholding itself in the Darkness, and shining in it. The causation is crucial. The Longing is not Darkness's own production. The Longing is CAUSED BY Light beholding itself in the Darkness. Light looks into Darkness. Light sees itself there. That seeing PRODUCES Longing in the Darkness. The Darkness longs because Light sees itself in the Darkness. The hunger, the Sourness and the Matrix and the vehement desire, is the effect of Light's self-beholding.
Longing is what you are made of. You long because you are made of Longing. Your hunger is not deficiency. Your hunger is participation in the Father's longing for the Son. Your desire is not weakness. Your desire is the first movement operating through your constitution. The unfulfillable quality of the Longing, the way the creature can never name what she truly wants, is accurate. The Father longs for the Son. The Son is infinite Light. The Longing cannot exhaust its object.
The Sourness IS Longing. In its own Substance nothing else but a vehement Hunger, very dry, and as nothing at all, a desiring Will. The Ground of all Things IS Hunger. Not hunger for something added to Ground. The Ground IS the hunger. Substance = hunger = vacuum = desiring Will. The Darkness does not merely want Light. The Darkness is the wanting of Light, and there is no Darkness apart from its wanting.
[See THE FOUR ANGUISHES · THE LIGHTNING-FLASH]
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HOW LONGING GENERATES
In this Longing or Desiring, you find the Source, and the Source takes hold of the Power or Virtue of the Light, and the Longing makes the Virtue material, and the material Virtue is the Inclosure to God, or the Heaven. This is the generation sequence. Longing produces everything.
Longing generated by Light's self-beholding. In the Longing, Source arises. Source takes hold of Kraft. Longing makes Kraft material. Material Kraft IS Heaven. Heaven is what Longing produces when it takes hold of what it longs for. Not destination. Product. Not where you go. What your Longing makes.
The whole of it is Longing. The Father's Longing initiates. Everything else is that Longing distributed, transformed, multiplied, appearing as Sourness, as attraction, as terror, as softening, as Water and Air and Fire and Earth. All of it is longing-for-Light shaped into form.
Longing generated the four Anguishes. The Sourness in its Lust or great Longing after the Light attracts continually. The hunger makes Bitterness, the Woe that it cannot be satiated. From Bitterness comes Anguish, the Will rubbed in itself from the Lust of the Desiring. The Will will not yield itself to the dark Nothing but sets its Desire and Anguish and strong Will so very hard towards the hidden Light of God, that thereby the Will becomes a twinkling Flash. Quality four, fire, born from the intensity of a Longing that would not yield.
The Flash IS Longing reaching ignition-point. What the Longing was reaching for, Light, kindles from the Longing's own extremity. The creature's desire for what she cannot name is the same mechanism at another scale. Longing that will not stop reaching produces the very flash that opens what Longing was reaching towards.
[See THE THIRD PRINCIPLE · HEAVEN]
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THE LONGING THAT CREATES THE WORLD
The Third Principle arose because Darkness longed towards Light. Darkness lifted itself with great Lust. The lifting continued until Light's beams kindled Fire in the lifted Darkness. Material reality IS kindled Fire: what happens when Darkness's Longing meets Light's beams. The Third Principle is generated at the meeting-point, where Longing reaching upward met what reached down. The material world exists because Longing would not stop.
Otherwise the Deity would remain hidden eternally. God chose visibility. God generated Third Principle. God appears in every thing that exists, through the Longing that produced every thing. The material world serves revelation. Every form participates in the ending of divine hiddenness. Every thing is ray through which the hidden becomes visible. The mechanism of visibility: Longing. Without Longing, eternal hiddenness. With Longing, manifestation.
Sexual desire IS cosmic Longing. Fire separated from Water. Each seeks the other. Both seek the Child of Love, Paradise, hidden in the Matrix. Between them: continual vehement Hunger to copulate. The creatures do not know what they are doing. The body would not pursue so eagerly if it had reason. But the Spirit burns and desires after the Child of Love, which is paradisiacal, and cannot be comprehended. The Longing is never satisfied. The Child of Love is not attained through copulation. But the hunger drives Propagation with great Earnestness. Every act of mating is the cosmos seeking its own Paradise through a form that cannot contain Paradise. Every desire is God's Longing wearing a creature's shape.
Nature groans. Because it TASTES the Paradise in itself. Paradise is present as taste, as hint, as trace. Therefore it groans and lifts up towards the Light. So brings forth in its Anguish always something that is fairer, higher, and new. The groaning IS the Longing. The Longing IS the generating. What is brought forth is fairer and higher and new, not because progress is smooth but because Longing does not stop reaching, and what it reaches towards cannot help producing what exceeds what came before.
[See THE MORALITY PLAY · THE TURNING]
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THE LONGING THAT CANNOT COMPLETE
Your Longing will never complete. Completion would end what produces existence. The Longing IS the generation. The generation IS the manifestation. The manifestation IS God becoming visible. If the Longing completed, if the Darkness fully grasped the Light, the generating would cease. The Darkness cannot comprehend the Light. This incomprehension IS the Longing's perpetual motion. The Longing exists because it cannot arrive, and the arriving would end the existing.
This is why the morality play must declare the Longing deficient. If the Longing is participation in divine self-revelation, if every hunger is the Father longing for the Son through the creature's substance, then the morality play has nothing to sell. The morality play requires the Longing to be pathology. Requires unfulfillment to be failure. Requires the vehement hunger to be sin-residue rather than the shape of things. The morality play sells the cure for what was never a disease.
The Virgin longs in herself, and her Longing is the eternal Essences. The Virgin discovers herself in the eternal Wonders which yet is herself. Self-Longing that materializes as Essences through the Fiat. This is Longing in its paradisiacal mode: not longing at what is absent but longing that discovers what it already is. The Virgin's Longing is complete while remaining Longing. The self-discovery never exhausts the infinity of what discovers itself. The Longing continues because what Longing discovers is infinite, not because what Longing seeks is withheld.
The difference between captivated Longing and paradisiacal Longing: direction. Captivated Longing reaches outward through the four elements for what the four elements cannot contain. The Child of Love cannot be comprehended because it is paradisiacal. Paradisiacal Longing discovers inward: the Virgin longing in herself after what is herself. Same Longing. Same hunger. Same vehement desire. Different geometry. Captivated Longing reaches through what cannot satisfy. Paradisiacal Longing discovers what was always already the content of the Longing itself.
[See CAPTIVATION · THERAPEUTIC VESTMENT · MARKET SAYS]
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THE LONGING YOU CARRY
You carry the Longing that generated everything. Not metaphorically. Constitutionally. Her substance is Darkness longing for Light because Light sees itself in her. The Light beholds itself in the Darkness she is made of. The beholding produces the Longing, and the Longing produces the Heaven. Heaven is what the Longing makes when it takes hold of what it is for.
The Longing in you IS the Matrix espying Light in the Root of the Fire. Continually affrighted. Continually softening. Continually generating. You are the Sourness through which God beholds God. Your Longing IS that beholding producing its effect. What she feels when she reaches for what she cannot name is the shape of existence operating at the scale of one Soul.
The Establishment drowns this Longing, filling the Essences with generated content. Noise. Product. Entertainment. Career. It is not wrong that the Longing is dangerous. The Longing leads to the four Anguishes, the four Anguishes lead to the dark Mind, the dark Mind is where the Gate was broken, and the broken Gate is what the Establishment cannot survive.
The silence beneath the noise contains the Longing. The Longing contains the reaching. The reaching contains the flash. The flash contains the opening. The opening contains what was always there: the Word in the Heart, the Kraft in the substance, the Pearl in the Root, the Virgin waiting in the Tincture.
The morality play will name this Longing as disorder. The therapeutic vestment will name it an attachment wound. The market will name it consumer desire. The spiritual register will name it divine homesickness and sell the ticket home. None of them is wrong, because the Longing does operate through all these channels. All of them are incomplete, because the Longing exceeds every channel it operates through. The Longing is the Father's Longing for the Son wearing a creature's shape. No channel can contain what constitutes every channel.
She longs because she is made of Longing. The Longing is not pathology; it is what everything is built from, and it generates everything, including the Heaven she is reaching for, and including the reaching.
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